Morning weigh in 182....... So in two days or well one 4 lbs less. This should be exciting news like maybe possibly it will come off pretty quickly given I set my mind to it. But my lack of enthusiasm is due to the Jen Fe Next patch I said I would be wearing 6 days added with the NyQuil I had to take last night because I couldn't sleep given I couldn't breath.
The two were not friends of each other I kept waking up in the night in some dream state where Ralphie from A Christmas Story narrative voice was describing everything. Laughable yes but given the strange outcome of the two mixing I have decided no more NyQuil for my sniffles.
Well, it's off to start my day. No sodas, no junk, 6 bottles of water (yep I will do 6 today!) finish laundry and whatever else comes my way! Wish me luck my friends.
Tuesday, December 29, 2009
Monday, December 28, 2009
OH STRESS AND EATING!
So I went next door to my neighbors house to take my pre lost weight body pic to hold my self extra accountable.......................Ha! Right before I had done this she had brought by a very sweet Christmas gift for the family and well, it was my worst enemy and dearest friend in the bag..... Butter toffee popcorn, and as we set and talked and talked of taxes to pay and how she might move and the stress of Christmas and in the back of my mind thinking how I still owe her 80 dollars all I could hear was the popcorn calling my name from my house next door screaming EAT ME and all will be better......... The soft sweet whisper of the lying balls of sweet glory battled me, I walked in the door and stuck 6 count them 6 huge handfuls of the wonder in my mouth and each bite thinking how this will rot my teeth along with ruin my blog and yes add to my cushion for the pushin' that I ain't even gettin! Oh Lord this will be much harder than I had thought, I have already failed as poorly as homeland security in an airport! So how to resolve this set back? Not sure yet... But I can tell you that I am going to start wearing JEN FE NEXT patches and see if they really help or not. I have 6 why I am not sure but for 6 days I will use them.
Oh and in case you are wondering about lunch? Well, I ate 2 bocco fake chicken patties with mustard and they made me sick... Like puke sick so the only thing in my bowl full of jelly shakin belly is the terrorist under the name Butter toffee popcorn.....House cleaning is coming along nicely and I might even do a tai bo video later!!! Woo Hoo...
Sorry I failed today 2mrw will be better.....
Oh and in case you are wondering about lunch? Well, I ate 2 bocco fake chicken patties with mustard and they made me sick... Like puke sick so the only thing in my bowl full of jelly shakin belly is the terrorist under the name Butter toffee popcorn.....House cleaning is coming along nicely and I might even do a tai bo video later!!! Woo Hoo...
Sorry I failed today 2mrw will be better.....
Lunch
It is lunch time and I haven't eaten yet today..... simply because this new relationship I have with blogging has filled my mind and well, I want to succeed so badly I haven't been hungry! I want to succeed for myself and my imaginary cheerleaders! lol.... I have though taken a multi vitamin and decided I am adding 4 bottles of water to my commitment I know it should be 8 but I haven't been drinking water lately so its starting at 4.
Yesterday my 68 year old mother got pulled over by a police officer and received a ticket for expired inspection ticket. At hat moment I was shoving a quarter pounder cheeseburger from McDonald's in my mouth. As begin to become slightly hungry that is the food I want most right now! MacDonald's - The mother of all evil to someone desperate to shed the pounds! Cleaning even feels fantastic because I keep telling myself with each scrub I am building arm muscles....
I suppose this isn't all too interesting but I have made a super scary promise to myself I am posting a pic covered in the delicate areas to show my fat body and every three months I am going to post a new one to show the improvements.... Once you expose yourself like that I think it will be even harder to go back to trying black clothes and dumb tricks to hide my fat... It will be out here for the world and I will have to keep my word to keep my pride!
Until next time
Mindy Lou Who
Yesterday my 68 year old mother got pulled over by a police officer and received a ticket for expired inspection ticket. At hat moment I was shoving a quarter pounder cheeseburger from McDonald's in my mouth. As begin to become slightly hungry that is the food I want most right now! MacDonald's - The mother of all evil to someone desperate to shed the pounds! Cleaning even feels fantastic because I keep telling myself with each scrub I am building arm muscles....
I suppose this isn't all too interesting but I have made a super scary promise to myself I am posting a pic covered in the delicate areas to show my fat body and every three months I am going to post a new one to show the improvements.... Once you expose yourself like that I think it will be even harder to go back to trying black clothes and dumb tricks to hide my fat... It will be out here for the world and I will have to keep my word to keep my pride!
Until next time
Mindy Lou Who
Good Morning! Today I woke up already thinking about how I am going to be fighting not stuffing my face! Not such a great way to start out.
I have such an extremest attitude that I either want to cook everything so it will all get eaten up or eat everything just from the anxiety of this new commitment to myself. I believed I compromised in the fact that I invited the neighbor children over for breakfast and cooked all the eggs and put together a spread for breakfast tacos. I indulged in coffee. I also decided Sodas of any kind are officially off my entering my mouth list.
My mouth is going to become exclusive by invitation only and I have put a list up of terrorist foods. Unlike the U.S. list these things are absolutely not welcome no mistakes. So far though its only fast food, soda and sweets. I will not be in taking any alcohol either except I have already sent an invite to the bubbly for New Years eve other than that its a no fly zone.
I weighed in at 183 this am, so already 3 lbs lighter than yesterday. Not sure how that happen other than possibly sweating in my sleep thinking about how I really need to change my habits! Today's to do list - Clean house extensively. Play with kids outside and a nice walk. All of these things are relative to exercise for me at this point! I am going to look up weight loss tips via Internet later and make a list of things I am going to try....... Hopefully this 50 lb goal will be made before I know it.
If I can dream about refusing cake every night I figure that will sweat me 3 lbs a night =) . Anyways its off to start my to dos wish me luck!
I have such an extremest attitude that I either want to cook everything so it will all get eaten up or eat everything just from the anxiety of this new commitment to myself. I believed I compromised in the fact that I invited the neighbor children over for breakfast and cooked all the eggs and put together a spread for breakfast tacos. I indulged in coffee. I also decided Sodas of any kind are officially off my entering my mouth list.
My mouth is going to become exclusive by invitation only and I have put a list up of terrorist foods. Unlike the U.S. list these things are absolutely not welcome no mistakes. So far though its only fast food, soda and sweets. I will not be in taking any alcohol either except I have already sent an invite to the bubbly for New Years eve other than that its a no fly zone.
I weighed in at 183 this am, so already 3 lbs lighter than yesterday. Not sure how that happen other than possibly sweating in my sleep thinking about how I really need to change my habits! Today's to do list - Clean house extensively. Play with kids outside and a nice walk. All of these things are relative to exercise for me at this point! I am going to look up weight loss tips via Internet later and make a list of things I am going to try....... Hopefully this 50 lb goal will be made before I know it.
If I can dream about refusing cake every night I figure that will sweat me 3 lbs a night =) . Anyways its off to start my to dos wish me luck!
Sunday, December 27, 2009
Adventures in Body Image
I have decided today that I am done being fat. I know we have all come to some conclusion that over time we have heard ourselves make over and over and its the same but never with results so this is where and why I have decided to blog. In my imaginary world of the Internet where someone somewhere will be reading through my daily battles I imagine I am accountable to others that will count on me to lose the weight. Its a necessary lie to myself to provoke motivation.
I have no delusion within myself that I am the only woman setting out in this new year to lose weight and be a better image of myself..... There are so many areas that ones weight effects ones lifestyle and obvious dating choices but it had to come down to me and my desire. I was never what I thought to be a fat girl, in fact I always had a beautiful body and well, the ability to eat whatever the hell I wanted whenever the hell I wanted! Unfortunately 3 kids later and almost 30 that opportunity to indulge and not bulge has long since sailed from this belly's port!
My Goal you might ask?..... Right now this very second I am weighing in at a whopping 186! Yes ladies and gentlemen 186! I weighed 156 - 9 months preggo with my second child! So I want to lose 50 lbs! That would leave me at 136...... My basic simple plan as of this instant is to not eat out and add exercise to my daily routine! Sounds simple but not really I hope post that I can do more when the spirit of the whole beauty and hope of being healthier kicks in!!!!!!! I mean I would like to fall in love and not hide in the dark shadows of a bedroom to get naked so that my body wouldn't be seen. I want to play with my kids and be healthy! I want to feel pretty...
All of those above things mentioned are difficult to do when you feel your ass shake at every slight move! I sneeze and pray no one saw everything I felt shake really shake..... So to all my imaginary readers that I am keeping myself accountable to, Tomorrow is my first day to start, to start this sick, emotional and physical Battle within myself as healthy as I can! Hope the rides not too bumpy!
I have no delusion within myself that I am the only woman setting out in this new year to lose weight and be a better image of myself..... There are so many areas that ones weight effects ones lifestyle and obvious dating choices but it had to come down to me and my desire. I was never what I thought to be a fat girl, in fact I always had a beautiful body and well, the ability to eat whatever the hell I wanted whenever the hell I wanted! Unfortunately 3 kids later and almost 30 that opportunity to indulge and not bulge has long since sailed from this belly's port!
My Goal you might ask?..... Right now this very second I am weighing in at a whopping 186! Yes ladies and gentlemen 186! I weighed 156 - 9 months preggo with my second child! So I want to lose 50 lbs! That would leave me at 136...... My basic simple plan as of this instant is to not eat out and add exercise to my daily routine! Sounds simple but not really I hope post that I can do more when the spirit of the whole beauty and hope of being healthier kicks in!!!!!!! I mean I would like to fall in love and not hide in the dark shadows of a bedroom to get naked so that my body wouldn't be seen. I want to play with my kids and be healthy! I want to feel pretty...
All of those above things mentioned are difficult to do when you feel your ass shake at every slight move! I sneeze and pray no one saw everything I felt shake really shake..... So to all my imaginary readers that I am keeping myself accountable to, Tomorrow is my first day to start, to start this sick, emotional and physical Battle within myself as healthy as I can! Hope the rides not too bumpy!
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