Good mORNING ALL 178 OF MYSELF!

So the day started off earlier than normal. My dear friend Carol Ham came and gave me a jump start on house cleaning about 6 am and well, My mom had to be dropped off at work by seven Emily went to the neighbors about 630 and Mahli was at school by 7115 so Judah could be at his dentist appointment by 730. His teeth were perfect and that is awesome so I didn't feel the stress of a chewing out by the dentist and then want to shove a pie down my own pie hole!

So I dropped my son off and returned home did my weigh in and still at 178. Grrrr. This is going to be a long haul. I have to do it though I cant stand being fatty mcfatterson anymore!
Off to do laundry that never ends, go by the college for my own classes and pick up the plumbing snake to fix my toilet that Judah tried to take spider man deep sea diving in! Its gonna be a good day because that's what I choose, its just about moving forward cause I want to take a nap! But I hope my check in tomorrow will reveal some weight loss! Catch you on the flip side!

Suprises!

So I have lost Ten lbs thus far...... It is not awww inspiring yet though because this first 10 was easy cheesy! Its time to get in that anything to lose it mode. Without purging or starvation. Honestly right now those appeal more than hard work! But yesterday I found Golden treasures awaiting me while organizing the untouched for years in my room. A bottle of Hoodia and 12 more patches.

So I took the Hoodia this morning and put on another patch! I am cleaning my kids room today and I think the up and down in and out of this enormous task will make me sweat a little, combined with the shock every time I touch a talking toy and it scares the hey out of me! II hope somewhere someone is reading this and thankful that there is another person trying to lose weight without being psycho. I mean I had 3 kids in 3 years I am never going to look like all the young un-stretched marked bodies of the 20 yr old dating all the single men in town and honestly as a grown woman who gave life my desire to has kinda passed. I want to look fit healthy and not starved. It is hard though I am no longer a spring chicken and my freedom to be at the gym until 11 at night has long passed.
To whomever you may be if you are real let me know your reading I need the encouragement.
Until tomorrow!

New Year New nada =)

Unfortunately , I had sooo much fun during my holiday that well, I just stopped caring about my pot belly and danced the nights away! I did things like binge eat and shout a little louder during praise at church as if Jesus would come to my aid in my weight loss as I sat by and did nothing because I jumped a little higher... Not that that was my motives in praising but in my vain mind the thoughts did pass through. But I weigh in at 178 and 3/4 So there is some progress. Maybe its the Jen Fe Next ? I don't know but I do know my first step is to join the boot camp classes at Jamie's Therapeutic Spa and Touch. So there is an exercise commitment. I haven't written on here in three days as if avoiding the pages would somehow help me to deny that my arse is seeping over the sides of my chair and by all means I can have another donut. But time to get back on track and keep it real! Thanks for reading whomever you may be real or imagined! It helps me keep fighting the battle of the bulge until tomorrow!

ughhhhhh

Morning weigh in 182....... So in two days or well one 4 lbs less. This should be exciting news like maybe possibly it will come off pretty quickly given I set my mind to it. But my lack of enthusiasm is due to the Jen Fe Next patch I said I would be wearing 6 days added with the NyQuil I had to take last night because I couldn't sleep given I couldn't breath.

The two were not friends of each other I kept waking up in the night in some dream state where Ralphie from A Christmas Story narrative voice was describing everything. Laughable yes but given the strange outcome of the two mixing I have decided no more NyQuil for my sniffles.

Well, it's off to start my day. No sodas, no junk, 6 bottles of water (yep I will do 6 today!) finish laundry and whatever else comes my way! Wish me luck my friends.

OH STRESS AND EATING!

So I went next door to my neighbors house to take my pre lost weight body pic to hold my self extra accountable.......................Ha! Right before I had done this she had brought by a very sweet Christmas gift for the family and well, it was my worst enemy and dearest friend in the bag..... Butter toffee popcorn, and as we set and talked and talked of taxes to pay and how she might move and the stress of Christmas and in the back of my mind thinking how I still owe her 80 dollars all I could hear was the popcorn calling my name from my house next door screaming EAT ME and all will be better......... The soft sweet whisper of the lying balls of sweet glory battled me, I walked in the door and stuck 6 count them 6 huge handfuls of the wonder in my mouth and each bite thinking how this will rot my teeth along with ruin my blog and yes add to my cushion for the pushin' that I ain't even gettin! Oh Lord this will be much harder than I had thought, I have already failed as poorly as homeland security in an airport! So how to resolve this set back? Not sure yet... But I can tell you that I am going to start wearing JEN FE NEXT patches and see if they really help or not. I have 6 why I am not sure but for 6 days I will use them.

Oh and in case you are wondering about lunch? Well, I ate 2 bocco fake chicken patties with mustard and they made me sick... Like puke sick so the only thing in my bowl full of jelly shakin belly is the terrorist under the name Butter toffee popcorn.....House cleaning is coming along nicely and I might even do a tai bo video later!!! Woo Hoo...
Sorry I failed today 2mrw will be better.....

Lunch

It is lunch time and I haven't eaten yet today..... simply because this new relationship I have with blogging has filled my mind and well, I want to succeed so badly I haven't been hungry! I want to succeed for myself and my imaginary cheerleaders! lol.... I have though taken a multi vitamin and decided I am adding 4 bottles of water to my commitment I know it should be 8 but I haven't been drinking water lately so its starting at 4.

Yesterday my 68 year old mother got pulled over by a police officer and received a ticket for expired inspection ticket. At hat moment I was shoving a quarter pounder cheeseburger from McDonald's in my mouth. As begin to become slightly hungry that is the food I want most right now! MacDonald's - The mother of all evil to someone desperate to shed the pounds! Cleaning even feels fantastic because I keep telling myself with each scrub I am building arm muscles....

I suppose this isn't all too interesting but I have made a super scary promise to myself I am posting a pic covered in the delicate areas to show my fat body and every three months I am going to post a new one to show the improvements.... Once you expose yourself like that I think it will be even harder to go back to trying black clothes and dumb tricks to hide my fat... It will be out here for the world and I will have to keep my word to keep my pride!
Until next time
Mindy Lou Who

Good Morning! Today I woke up already thinking about how I am going to be fighting not stuffing my face! Not such a great way to start out.
I have such an extremest attitude that I either want to cook everything so it will all get eaten up or eat everything just from the anxiety of this new commitment to myself. I believed I compromised in the fact that I invited the neighbor children over for breakfast and cooked all the eggs and put together a spread for breakfast tacos. I indulged in coffee. I also decided Sodas of any kind are officially off my entering my mouth list.

My mouth is going to become exclusive by invitation only and I have put a list up of terrorist foods. Unlike the U.S. list these things are absolutely not welcome no mistakes. So far though its only fast food, soda and sweets. I will not be in taking any alcohol either except I have already sent an invite to the bubbly for New Years eve other than that its a no fly zone.

I weighed in at 183 this am, so already 3 lbs lighter than yesterday. Not sure how that happen other than possibly sweating in my sleep thinking about how I really need to change my habits! Today's to do list - Clean house extensively. Play with kids outside and a nice walk. All of these things are relative to exercise for me at this point! I am going to look up weight loss tips via Internet later and make a list of things I am going to try....... Hopefully this 50 lb goal will be made before I know it.
If I can dream about refusing cake every night I figure that will sweat me 3 lbs a night =) . Anyways its off to start my to dos wish me luck!